God, I’m tired.
I’m just tired.
I’m tired of working so hard, being a harsh task master in my own life, expecting so much of myself.
God, please help me adopt a bit of a “Can’t Do” Attitude.
Help me to feel less competent.
Help me to not expect so much.
Help me to have compassion, kindness and gentleness with myself.
God, help me really get in touch with the attitude of surrender I wrote about a few weeks ago.
I can’t do this alone.
I just can’t.
And, I thank you for your help.
A related morality tale.
There is a story that I remember hearing about a little boy who asks his mother, “Do you think I can lift that large rock over there.”
“Yes,” says the mother, “I am certain you can lift it if you use all of your strength.”
The boy saunters over to the rock, attempts to lift it, but is unable.
“I couldn’t do it,” he reports to his mother.
“But you didn’t use all your strength,” the wise woman remarks.
He leans down, grunts, and still is unsuccessful.
“I used all my strength that time, but I still couldn’t,” he says.
“To use all your strength,” the mother says while leaning down to pick up the rock with him, “sometimes means asking for help.”
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