(1.40) Why do I write these?

(This is a rhetorical question.)
I realized that sometimes, perhaps much of the time, I write these articles so that I can feel accomplished.  That’s one of the reasons I started Religion-Outside-The-Box, after all, so that I could feel good in having done it.

I like accomplishing things because after I’ve done something, I feel a momentary hit of “I matter,” that my time has been productive, and therefore that I exist and am important.

Perhaps I write these articles for The 77% Weekly so that you can read them, think about them, and think about me, thereby giving me a greater sense of importance, existence.

Honestly, the more that I can get you to think about me, the more of you out there thinking about me, the more I can feel reflected in this world. And the more I feel reflected, the more I feel like I am important and exist.

It is a great worry of mine that if I am not reflected, that I might not exist, be important, matter.

(Oh, this Friday marks my 40th birthday, which might account for this über-meta-reflection.)

I’m certain you are similar… you probably like to be noticed, thought fondly of, and/or do things so that you feel you matter.

We all do things so that we feel reflected back, important, that we matter.  But, what if we didn’t do these things? 

If we didn’t do these things would we cease to be? Or course not…

Perhaps, we needn’t work so hard to prove our existence?  

As the fictional Stuart Smalley used to say, “I’m Good Enough, I’m Smart Enough, and Doggone It, People Like Me!”

Please e-mail me back and tell me that I matter. Or, better yet, don’t.

Spiritual-religious exercise for the week: contemplate me! Or, better yet, contemplate all the things you do to prove to yourself and that you might still be fab without doing those things.